From: Chelsea [#001]

Dear God,

I am so excited to be typing in here. Isn't this perfect? When my mom told me to keep a journal and write letters to You in that journal, I'd always put it off. Now that I actually like blogging, computers, and You, I bet I'll be doing this for quite some time.

God, I want to have a love for you. I don't know if I'm doing this right or not. When my dad was driving us back from California on Sunday afternoon, there was this preacher of some other Christian denomination who picked at the gods of the Hebrews in the Old Testament. There was Baal, Ashteroth, Amun, and many others.

I realized how a lot of people in the current day worship Amun, the god of wealth. It's like money drives their lives. Money is the reason they live. Money is what determines your future and everything else. Many women in this world worship Ashteroth, the goddess of romance. Yes, we all wait for that one dreamy guy to sweep us off our feet. The ups and downs in our love lives determine your life, everything you have, and everything you'll go through. These are all very tempting to give into. They're so easy to worship.

"The irony that you may find yourself getting into," the preacher mentioned in the middle of his sermon, "is that when all these worshippers of these false gods are let down, they blame God. Why? Because those gods change. Our God is a God who does not change. We don't always get things done our way. But that's how He works, just like surprises. You find yourself most surprised when you least expect it, and you're least surprised when you expect it."

God, will You tell me tonight if I'm doing anything wrong? God, will You be able to clear my head of any worldly thoughts? Teach me, I really want to love You.

God, I'm too scared to go out into the world. I'm too scared without You. I'm too scared to see people murdering, stealing, smoking, bullying...I'm not strong enough. I'm too scared to find out if I'll turn out a bad person when I'll be exposed to all this junk. And I think I know why. I'm not close enough to You, at least not yet. My faith isn't strong enough.

I don't want to lose my faith in You like so many others have. I don't ever want to reject You. I would truly be lost in life if I did not even believe in You. Here I come, repentant and without much knowledge in You. You know all of this...I just never got to say it to You. I really need You.

Note to self: I should pick up a Bible soon and read something in it.

All Yours,
Chelsea